Five years ago, Citizen writer Robert Sibley
walked the 800-kilometre Camino de Santiago, one of the oldest
pilgrimages in Christianity. Last spring, he set out to walk Japan's
oldest and most famous Buddhist pilgrimage -- the 1,400 km Shikoku no
Michi
I didn't get very far before my leg muscles twanged and trembled in
protest. And that was only at the half-way point. By the time I reached
the top and limped across the courtyard to the hondo and the temple
office, I was seeing spots in front of my eyes. I sat on a bench in the
temple compound to rest and read a guidebook.
According to legend, Kobo Daishi founded the temple in honour of a
beautiful young girl. Every day, while he performed his meditations in
a mountainside hut, she interrupted her cloth-weaving -- kirihata means
"cut-cloth" -- to bring him food. Eventually, she told him her story:
Her mother had been a lady of the court in Kyoto and her father an
officer in the court guard. Before she was born, her father had been
exiled for his part in a rebellion and her mother, fearful of the
danger to her unborn child, prayed to Kannon, the Buddha of compassion.
Her prayers were answered and she managed to flee to Shikoku where
she raised her child until she died, leaving the daughter alone. Kobo
Daishi was so moved that he carved her a statue of Kannon and, heeding
the girl's wishes, ordained her as a nun. She immediately attained
enlightenment, or Buddhahood, and changed into a statue of Kannon
joining the one Kobo Daishi had carved. Kobo Daishi took the two
statues and enshrined them in the temple he built in the girl's honour.
Kirihataji is understandably popular with Japanese women. Before
Kobo Daishi, women were thought incapable of Buddhahood. Women had to
be re-born as men to have that potential. Kobo Daishi's teaching of
Sokushin-jobutsu -- that every person has a Buddha-nature and is
capable of attaining enlightenment "in this very body, in this very
life" -- changed that attitude.
Arguably, it is these influences that have made Kobo Daishi "the
most prominent and influential individual figure in popular Japanese
religious history," as Ian Reader writes in Religion in Contemporary
Japan. In 828, for example, he founded the first school for commoners,
providing food, shelter and education. This was unheard of at the time:
Only aristocrats could obtain an education.
At Temple 10, I had my first tickle of faith in Kobo Daishi, my
first inkling that there might be something to the notion he walks with
every pilgrim. I was parked on the bench, admiring at the statue of
Kannon, trying to ignore my body's whining at the prospect of the
afternoon's walk ahead -- nearly 10 kilometres across the Yoshino
valley. That's when I saw the shaven-headed young man with whom I'd
shared the dining room at the Minshuku Soshokudo the previous night. He
was walking toward me, accompanied by a thin-faced, middle-aged man
wearing glasses and a ball cap and a younger man with long black hair.
They bowed as a group. I stood to return the gesture. The shaven-headed
youth rattled off something in Japanese.
"Gomen nasai," I said. "Nihongo ga sukoshi dake dekimasu."
"I'm sorry. I speak only a little Japanese."
"Ah, you are American?" he asked in halting English.
"Iie, Kanada-jin desu," I said. "No, I'm Canadian."
The young
man was Hiroshi Yoshida, a university student from Osaka. He was
dressed as a henro with a straw hat and white vest. The others were
Shuji Niwano and his son, Jun, from Tokyo. Neither wore pilgrim garb.
Nor did they carry walking staffs. But they were the first fellow
pilgrims I met on the Shikoku no Michi. They wanted me to take their
picture. Niwano-san then asked if I would pose with his son.
The
request had considerable consequences. Niwano-san and I struck up a
friendship -- he would eventually honour me by saying I should address
him by his first name, Shuji -- that would make my pilgrimage immensely
more fulfilling, both in terms of companionship and the doors it opened
on Japanese customs and attitudes. Thanks to Niwano-san, I would meet
people, learn things and do things that would not have otherwise been
available to me given my lack of language and knowledge of Japan.
After
we performed our pilgrim duties we made our way down the long flight of
stairs to the Fujiya restaurant. It was little more than a few tables
and a half-dozen stools huddled around a counter. I couldn't make up my
mind if the floor was packed earth or hadn't been swept in a long time.
On one wall were faded pictures of henro and temples, along with dozens
of name-slips. There was also a calendar, dated 1996, with a picture of
the Toronto skyline, the CN Tower its centrepiece. The place was run by
Takeko Hara and her daughter, Mayumi. They fed me my first udon, for
which I shall always be grateful.
Udon is a classic Japanese
dish. The thick noodles are made from white flour and simmered in a
broth with other ingredients -- soft-boiled eggs, beef, shrimp or fish
-- and served in a large, heavy bowl. It is delicious and filling and
no one objects to the loud slurping noises you make because they make
the same noises, too. I remembered to say itadakimasu -- the Japanese
form of saying grace, meaning, literally, "I will receive" -- as the
bowl was placed in front of me.
My only difficulty was picking up
the long slippery noodles with chopsticks. It earned laughter. Before
we left, the mother had us sign our name-slips. Hara-san wanted them
for her collection. She was going to tape mine next to the Toronto
skyline picture.
We walked the rest of the afternoon as a group,
crossing the wide gravel bed of the Yoshino River and following the
path through the town of Kamojima and into the foothills. I asked my
companions why they were walking the Shikoku no Michi.
Hiroshi-san
said he was taking a break from university. Niwano-san's English wasn't
good but he managed to explain that 30 years ago he lived in Imabari, a
town on the north side of Shikoku where he had met his wife, Ikuko, and
where Jun was born. They moved to Tokyo, but he had always wanted to
return. When he retired he decided to walk the Shikoku pilgrimage with
Jun. Niwano-san's motives were, in part at least, driven by his concern
for Jun, the eldest of his two sons.
"Jun is not strong," Niwano-san said in stilted English. He looked up the road toward Jun and Hiroshi. "He has a condition."
I
had already noticed that Jun's behaviour was not normal for a young man
in his 20s. While he was friendly and eager to talk -- even now at a
distance I could hear Jun chattering away -- he was impulsive, almost
desperate, in his actions. Whenever we met another pilgrim on the road,
Jun practically leaped at them to talk and ask questions. He wasn't
aggressive; he just couldn't summon much self-restraint, or awareness
that it was necessary on occasion. It was the same thing with dogs; Jun
would inevitably run at any we encountered, wanting to pet them. The
dogs, however, snarled and barked at his charging approach. He was
always surprised, and hurt.
Over the next few weeks, walking
together for at least part of each day, I heard more about Niwano-san,
his hopes and fears regarding his son and family -- confidences that
both surprised and humbled me. Unlike North Americans, the Japanese
aren't given to discussing their private lives with strangers. For some
reason, Niwano-san confided in me. Initially, I suspected he did so
because I was a gaikokujin, an out-of-country person, who provided a
sounding for things he couldn't otherwise say. A pilgrimage invites
intimacy. Your mutual aches and pains, the shared endurances of the
trek, encourages an empathy you wouldn't normally feel for those who
aren't friends or family.
I was told that Jun had suffered some
kind of nervous or mental breakdown several years earlier, and, it
seems, never fully recovered. He had had to leave school and was unable
to hold down a job. And now he lived at home, largely spending his time
in his room listening to music and watching television. Niwano-san
hoped that walking the Shikoku no Michi would help Jun overcome his
self-imposed isolation and regain his self-confidence and health.
We
reached Fujiidera Temple, Temple 11, a few minutes before the office
closed at 5 p.m. Before we caught a taxi back to Kamojima, where we
each had rooms in various hotels or inns, I walked past the main hall
and looked up the path leading into the mountains. That's where I would
walk the next day on my way to Shosanji, Temple 12. My guidebooks
described the path as a long, hard climb.
Shosanji is one of six
nanshos, or perilous temples, that pilgrims find most difficult to
reach. You're forced to climb from an elevation of 40 metres at Temple
11 to about 700 metres just before Temple 12 -- the second highest
elevation on the entire route -- following a path that is near
perpendicular in places. Little wonder the path is referred to as henro
korogashi, or "pilgrim falling." You can see the gravestones of fallen
pilgrims scattered along the route.
The day started pleasantly,
sunny and cool again. I left the Central Hotel about 6:30. My feet
seemed fine -- I had wrapped them in moleskin just in case -- and the
stiffness in my legs disappeared after a few minutes. At a kiosk in the
Kamojima train station, I bought a bento, an all-in-one-box meal, for
lunch, along with a can of Georgia Cafe au Lait, two bottles of Pocari
Sweat and two bottles of water.
The trail was a tease. It began
with a slight incline that led gently into the shade of a cedar forest.
The air was cool and damp and pungent. Nightingales noted my passing.
Suddenly, a set of stairs cut into the ground and the trail climbed
steeply into the trees. And kept climbing. And climbing. Until it
reached a plateau that offered a view of the Yoshino River valley. I
was huffing and puffing too much to appreciate the panorama. I dropped
my pack and collapsed. I pulled out my map and looked at my watch. It
had taken 30 minutes to climb one kilometre. I knew then I was in for a
long day.
The trail followed a seemingly endless series of peaks
and valleys. I'd reach the summit of one mountain only to drop to a
valley floor and have to climb all over again. I filed along ridges
that fell away in vertiginous drops. It was easy to imagine plummeting
over the edge and disappearing in some tangle of dark wood.
The
path, slippery and soggy from spring rain, was so steep in places I
practically climbed on hands and knees, my face only inches from the
root-tangled earth. My boots were soon heavy with mud. I had to clamber
and leap over boulders -- no easy task with a 15-kilogram pack. I was
grateful for Kobo Daishi, my walking staff, which saved me from
twisting an ankle, or worse. After a few hours, my leg muscles
whimpered and my heart hammered like bass drum. I envisioned a blood
vessel bursting and my body lying at the edge of the trail.
It
took four hours to cover a little more than eight kilometres. By the
time I reached the small temple of Yanagi-no-mizu-an, nearly halfway to
Shosanji, I was wet, weary and wondering if I would make it. I flopped
in the dappled shade of a camellia bush.
When my heart beat
seemed more or less normal, I pulled out the bento. Turning back the
lid, I found three pieces of sushi, some tempura vegetables, several
slices of kamaboko, a sausage-like fish-paste roll, slices of bamboo
shoot and squash, and three onigiri, triangular chunks of rice wrapped
in seaweed. It was gone in minutes. I drained a bottle of water and a
bottle of Pocari Sweat.
I wanted to sit in the shade and listen
to the buzz of insects and watch the sway of the cedars, and, somehow,
without effort, get where I wanted. That's when I heard the tinkling of
a bell. I looked up from my self-pity. Two men came out of the forest
into the temple clearing. Both wore henro robes and hats and carried
the requisite walking sticks.
The taller man had a long, lean
face and walked straight-shouldered like a soldier. I guessed him to be
in his late 60s. The other had dark, grey-flecked hair. He looked to be
in his 50s. They bowed and greeted me but did not pause. When they
disappeared around a corner in the trail, I stood and stumbled in
pursuit of the bells I thought I could still hear. If they could
continue, why couldn't I?
The path started to climb almost
immediately and I was soon back to wondering if my heart would hold
out. But I received encouragement from another source. I had noticed
little statues of Jizo, the bald-pated deity who guards children, the
souls of the dead and travellers, every few hundred metres along the
trail. He has the power of salvation, and is known especially for
helping the souls of children in their task of building a bridge across
the river of the underworld so they can cross to find a happy rebirth.
Stone
Jizo statues are everywhere -- roadside shrines and temples, on the
edges of farm fields, at intersections, in cemeteries and, as I
discovered, along mountain trails. During those last kilometres to
Shosanji, I adopted Jizo as my personal protector, the guardian of
out-of-condition gaijin pilgrims.
I marked my progress by how
many Jizo statues I saw, forcing myself to count three before taking a
break. Each break lasted only long enough to let me catch my breath and
allow my heart to return to a less hysterical beat.
I refused to
look at my watch or calculate the remaining distance. You'll get there
when you get there, I told myself, remembering what my father said on
Sunday drives. It didn't help when I spotted the occasional grave
marker -- short, pillar-like stones on the side of the trail, often
huddled around a Jizo statute. They were covered with lichen, half sunk
into the earth, nameless except for the word henro carved into the
stone.
There were times when I was desperate for the sight of one
of the little statues, peeping out from behind a tree or bush or
hanging out on some wet trail corner. I stabbed the trail with my
stick, putting one foot in front of the other, until, coming around a
bend, I was confronted by a set of stone stairs. I looked up. At the
top stood a six-metre-high statue of Kobo Daishi, behind a wrought-iron
fence in the shade of a huge cedar. A sight for sore legs. Had I
finally made it? I looked at my watch -- nearly 3:30. I had been on the
trail for more than eight hours.
I re-checked my map. I had only
reached Ipponsugi-an, a small shrine; I still had an hour's walk ahead
of me. But the trail was downhill for much of the way. The path dropped
through orange groves and orchards of cherry trees. The pungent
ripeness of the orange trees in bloom mixed with the sweet and softer
perfume of the cherry blossoms. I walked through a cathedral of scent.
By the time I crossed a rushing stream at the foot of the mountain --
elevation 422 metres -- and began the final climb to Shosanji, I was
feeling more charitable toward the world.
But I was flagging, my steps leaden. My legs wobbled, thigh muscles twitched. Feeling faint, I almost fell several times.
I
also heard bells. Normally, the sound was irritating, especially the
bells attached to pilgrim walking sticks. But this was the sound of
salvation, telling me a fellow pilgrim was ahead, and if he could do
it, so could I. Except, I couldn't be sure I wasn't hearing things.
I
stopped and listened and, yes, there it was again: Some pilgrim, bless
his osame-fuda, was bonging away at the Shosanji bell, announcing his
arrival to the gods. A few minutes later, I emerged from the forest to
face a final set of stairs that led to the temple gate. Soon, I was
banging that bell myself.
Two hours later, I nearly fell asleep
in the o-furo. I was as relaxed as an udon noodle. I might be stiff and
sore in the morning, but right then all aches and pains had melted away.
Despite
my fatigue, I was restless. Instead of returning to my room, I decided
to stroll around the temple compound. Crunching along the gravel
pathway toward the temples in the gathering dusk, I spotted the neon
light from a bank of vending machines and bought a hot Georgia Cafe au
Lait. I sat on a bench and stared across the valley. In the distance,
the dark, sawtoothed peaks of mountain ridges rippled away to the
southwest, turning from blue to purple to black. I sat nursing my
coffee as the mountains became one black mass against a star-plastered
sky.
The day had been hard and there would be others like it
ahead. But I'd done enough long-distance hikes to know the first week
is always the hardest. Your body needs time to adjust to walking for
hours. More crucially, the mind needs time to adjust. Anybody in
reasonable health can walk 20 to 30 kilometres for a few days. But
knowing you have to walk that distance every day for weeks throws up a
psychological barrier. You're tempted to find any excuse to chuck it
because you know it's going to get worse before it gets better. So why
was I doing this?
Certainly, the Shikoku no Michi offered the
lure of the exotic and appealed to my sense of adventure. While much of
Japan is covered by asphalt and concrete, the Shikoku pilgrimage
offered a sojourn through a part of the country that still possessed
some wildness and was little visited by foreigners. There was also the
fact the Citizen was sponsoring my trek.
But there was more to it
than an expense-paid adventure. If all I was doing was visiting 88
Buddhist temples, why do it the hard way? Why not travel by train, bus
and taxi. I'd walked 40 kilometres. I had 1,300 kilometres to go. What
was I trying to prove? Come to that, to whom was I trying to prove
what? I wasn't a Buddhist, so I couldn't claim a compelling religious
motive. I even hesitated to ascribe spiritual motives to myself.
Sipping
my coffee, I remembered a line from The Inland Sea, Donald Richie's
marvelous travelogue of a boat journey he made on the seaway separating
the main Japanese island of Honshu from Shikoku.
"A journey is
always something of a flight," Richie wrote. "You go to reach, but you
also go to escape." What was I escaping from? Or to?
I had hiked
across northern Spain in 2000, walking the 800-kilometre Camino de
Santiago, one of the oldest pilgrimage routes in Christianity, from the
French border town of Saint-Jean-Pied-de-Port to the Galician city of
Santiago de Compostela. It is there, legend has it, the bones of St.
James were buried.
Memories of that pilgrimage still come back --
the peacefulness of a sun-splashed forest path, the empty early morning
streets of O Cebreiro, the far horizon of the Spanish meseta. But what
I most remembered were those rare moments when, after my body -- and my
mind -- had grown accustomed to the walking, a deep sense of peace and
detachment settled on me. My mind was no longer filled with the clatter
and crush of everyday life.
I took a last swallow of my now cold
coffee and returned to my room. I prepared my pack for the morning,
opened the window, turned out the light and crawled beneath the quilt
on my futon. Just before I fell asleep I heard someone chanting sutras.
Follow Robert Sibley's Japanese pilgrimage in coming weeks in the Weekly. Next episode, May 15: The road to Temple 18.